This Life I Call Mine...
I'm sitting here snuggled up next to my sweet Brennan. He is such a beautiful little boy with such a sweet spirit. I sit and ponder over the love that I feel for my two boys and I feel absolutely amazed that such a love can exist. They complete me in a way that I never thought possible. They give me a purpose...a reason for being!
I often think about people who choose not to have children and I'm overwhelmed with the idea of going my entire life never feeling the love that one feels for their child. I'm overwhelmed with the idea of never tucking my babies in at night or never nursing them to health when they are sick. I can't imagine never being Santa Claus or never planning the perfect birthday party for my little ones. I don't even want to think about never hearing the words "I love you mommy!" or never having them crawl up into my lap for a nice long snuggle. I think about the times when my kids are grown and how lonely life would be not having them to come visit or not ever experiencing life as a grandmother.
There are so many things that I think about when I ponder over one's choice not to have children. Although, I respect the decisions made by others, I know that for myself my life would have never been as complete as I feel it is right now. When I look into my son's eyes and see a small smile curl around his lips, I see so much more than that simple gesture. I see a future...one that I feel such a strong responsibility for. Nothing could ever give me the level of happiness and security that those little sentiments give me. I'm thankful that my life has taken this beautiful turn, as motherhood has given me more than I could have ever asked for out of this life I call MINE!
I often think about people who choose not to have children and I'm overwhelmed with the idea of going my entire life never feeling the love that one feels for their child. I'm overwhelmed with the idea of never tucking my babies in at night or never nursing them to health when they are sick. I can't imagine never being Santa Claus or never planning the perfect birthday party for my little ones. I don't even want to think about never hearing the words "I love you mommy!" or never having them crawl up into my lap for a nice long snuggle. I think about the times when my kids are grown and how lonely life would be not having them to come visit or not ever experiencing life as a grandmother.
There are so many things that I think about when I ponder over one's choice not to have children. Although, I respect the decisions made by others, I know that for myself my life would have never been as complete as I feel it is right now. When I look into my son's eyes and see a small smile curl around his lips, I see so much more than that simple gesture. I see a future...one that I feel such a strong responsibility for. Nothing could ever give me the level of happiness and security that those little sentiments give me. I'm thankful that my life has taken this beautiful turn, as motherhood has given me more than I could have ever asked for out of this life I call MINE!
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